How time flies, it's now the fourth month of the year and shortly will just realize that another year is going to end, looking forward for the new year.
This recent break has allowed me to contemplate again on things and ask questions which most of the time I don't know the answer. Thoughts about the recent disappointment, about life and happiness, living differently and doing other things instead. Thoughts that I hoped to be asked or shared with someone who do knows me, or much better if it's someone who knows me more that I knew myself. And how I wish Ann was here, if only she was here.....
14th floor at 4PM, that is our usual meeting place. The place where will have our afternoon coffee break and chat about our never ending issues at work, people that hurted or influenced us, places where we wanted to go, our individual dreams and plans, our life existence, our beliefs. And when there's nothing to talk about, we just sit there quietly while drinking our coffe and watching the magnificient sunset. And though I see the sunset daily, it's like there's always something to be watched for, the scene is really wonderful and lovely just to be contained in a day from that floor. But something came up which made her to decide leaving and do something which she believes is the best for her. With a very promising career and talent, her decision is a total big NO for some, but for me, that decision was quite admirable, for it takes a lot of courage to do so.
With none so near trusted friend, I find it difficult to open with the family. In a way, I don't want them to be so worried about me or maybe there's just really things about ourselves which we feel more comfortable talking with a friend than family, because friends can relate more to the situation. But then at the end of the day, I'm still thankful to have a family who is with me at this depressing moment in life and for a God who is not letting go of me who promised that everything will come to pass.
I also wanted to share this text message sent by a friend, " Even though friends can be a help, only JESUS can reach beyond our tears and touch the dip hurts of our hearts. His comfort can carry us through the struggles of are lives until that day wen GOD himself wipes away every tear from our eyes."
